One of those days

This has been one of those days when I can feel the true sinfulness of man. I have been tested and have been found wanting today and I have cried bitter tears because of it. Why oh why do I have to fail my God so fully at times when I should be stronger. Evereything just snow balled into everything else until I couldn't even think straight I was so angry and instead of yelling and ranting at my children I stopped and took a deep breath and sang...eventually. I know I didn't yell at them and I didn't say anything demeaning or degrading and I didn't lash out at them, but somewhere I have dropped the ball today. Somewhere my attitude was not right, and my heart was not right, and my response was not right and I have exasperated my children. Let's not forget that verse after the one about obeying your parents in Ephesians (parents love to over look that one I've noticed). Although I didn't respond in a the I have in the past when pushed to my limit (mostly yelling) I can not be called innocent of some transgression somewhere. Lord help me!! Forgive me that the meditations of my heart where not pleasing to you oh Lord and that I did not seek first your wisdom during this dreary day!! I can only look to tomorrow where His mercies are new and thank God that He will not remember my trespasses today, but give me a fresh start tomorrow with Him through His son Jesus!! God bless you!